Connections

With all of the traveling that we did for the holidays I felt that Lily and I lost our special connection. We just can't seem to figure out what the other wants. The last month since Dusty started school has been so hard for both of us and we've both ended every day frustrated with one another. I've been praying and trying to figure out what to do and I just haven't been getting anywhere.  It's been such a heart breaking experience for me! I thought that this would all be natural and that it would come easily and it doesn't.

Yesterday I was reading my friend Hannah's blog and her post reminded me of how privileged I am to be Lily's mom. I've thought that and read it before but for some reason it really spoke to me yesterday. After reading her blog post and rereading parts of the parenting book that Dusty bought me, Lily and I finally started connecting again yesterday and its been wonderful. Tonight instead of fighting me to go to sleep, as soon as I sat down to rock her she snuggled in and fell right asleep. She hasn't done that in forever! I sang her usual primary songs to her just because I wanted to. I sing to her every night but tonight it felt so different. There was so much love in her little room that I started to cry. I finally feel like we're connecting again and I am so grateful for that! I couldn't help but try to snap a few pictures of her, in her dark room, so that I could remember this moment. Luckily she didn't wake up!